Sex-Rich

I made up this term, "sex-rich," to describe an amazing (to me) transformation that's happened in my life over the past couple of years. It means I have come to feel confident that I can have, if not any beautiful man I desire, then at least any type of beautiful man I desire. It's as though, instead of accumulating money or assets, I have accumulated some qualities or magic which attracts men whom I believe are far more attractive than I am (and often 10 to 20 years younger), and who in the past I looked upon as unattainable. And they keep coming, and it continues to astonish how one seems more beautiful than the next.

This is not exactly the equivalent of being asset-rich per se, since a wealthy person could in theory buy the company of any type of man; in my mind it beats being wealthy, because the attraction is based on me, my body, and not on money (since I don't possess any great wealth and don't pay for sex).

Being sex-rich doesn't make me feel superior or conceited; I am acutely aware that this phenomenon is only temporary and based on a number of conjunctions (shaving my head, being a top and therefore more in demand, getting a tan, staying in shape, two years of psychotherapy, taking Welbutrin, perfecting the art of hooking up online, looking younger than my actual age, etc.). However, it has profoundly changed my attitude toward life and my way of being. The crippling insecurity has been neutralized, and I feel like a different person.

Just a gigolo, everywhere I go ...

Comments

[Tony Smith]

Congrats on your self-liberation!